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I Lost Myself Inside a Drunken Kiss.
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Ailah Rasol.
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Sunday, May 30, 20109:30:00 PM
 I FEEL LIKE WEARING MOROCCAN TYPE OF MAXI DRESSES FOR THIS YEAR RAYA.inspiration: Abg Hasif's D and D theme. aim: be different from all malay costume. How's that? I shall post the design up soon. Instead; me and brother plan to use batik material and do moroccan maxi dress with a layer of black satin on top. It'll be a huge fun if mum going to sew it. After all, I could wear it for any occasion after raya just by replacing the top with shawl or other tops. How's the idea friends? Randoms idea i must say. Well oh well, it feels like ages since i last updated. School have been getting tougher day by day. Exams are round the corner. Tuesday will be my practical exam. I'm super nervous. So much to remember. Pulse taking, PPE, BP taking HOLY PRADA, I'm losing most my brain cells so fast. Especially something to do with AAP. And the most idiotic thing is that, I don't/ never even touch my books to revise while others already did. I'm not going to screw things up. Never, especially for someone who has no biology background, it do suck big time. Bigger news, while other are having their holiday break, HSN students are already posted for our very first attachment for two weeks. I will be at Yishun Poly, followed by Renci, Yishun eldercare and HPB. Must get my techniques right by then. I must. Scary manz. Friends and enjoyment was pretty much at it's peak. Met those whom i didn't get to meet for a long time like, FIZAHH, AMIRAHH, FAIZUL, CLARINDA ( KAI LING), SYIDAHH, AINN, ZULKARNAIN, FAIZ , SIMON plus some others who i can't really remember now. But hey, nice meeting you guys. MISS THE GIRLS THOUGH. ALOT. 6th JUNE 2010, I surely will go crazy with my lovable darlings, ZYZIE< SHAZA< SHASHA< YANA and we will be crashing to YANTY's 18th Birthday celebration. Be ready for us yanty cause we won't be giving you any mercy. Hopefully, on 12th June, will meet aini, do some shopping or whatsoever. Going to starve myself this week. I want to save money manz. Singapore's Great Singapore Sale is ON. Im not going to miss any cheap bargains for clothing, bag or shoe. I need them like fcuking urgently cause i ran out of it. Well i've set a mindset that I wont be going to school like as if I'm going to town. I want to dress down so I would look different whenever i go out. I don't want to look the same every time like when we are going out or what. School is school. Fashion do regard in school but i assume a shorts and shirt is already a good clothing line for students. comfortable, not over the edge, just nice for everything. That's what students should wear. Dress up to school if only I have private occasion to attend too. :) I want to look comfortable in school rather than being address as " FRESHIE GOING TO TOWN/CLUB type of clothing line" OPPS. Look simple, good and fresh is enough to create the inner beauty of a student and appropriate clothing though. This is my point of view. Its never same as others cause different people have different views. I want to be normal in school but different outside school. :) I miss my gluteus muscle boy! <3 Labels: pov TOP OF PAGE
Friday, May 7, 20109:29:00 PM
 It comes down to another week of life. when you think that things going to be easier, well it didn't, pretty much. beginning of the week, i fall sick && wasn't able to attend to school. what's worse, i missed out so much that day. i missed out lessons that are so important. aap, nsl and mic. to me, aap was the most important subject to me. it involve pure biology and that week was the week we learn about muscles both in lecture and practical. i thought missing monday's lesson would be alright. but as again, i was wrong. get back to school on tuesday, things were fine but i was very quiet. total fatigue. wednesday, was totall hell. guess what, i was late for my first lecture for the day. 1pm and being late? that doesn't seem so nice. adding on to that, i felt worse then giving up. was hoping i could slit my throat or even drool down all the zenax or whatever. i missed out a lot. i was demoralized. i was lost not knowing a single thing that dr dave says. it sucks big time. i was in an all time low that i need Z a lot that moment. Z gave me motivation but for only a message cause Z's prepaid was running low. how motivating. i tried to fight through the day. and how cute my class mate was to touch my cheek and say, be noisy tomorrow pplease ailah. you're not so you. please. i love them mans. deeeaaaammm it lahhh. p12 rawks. Z, i miss you like freaking a lot. even though i tried not to admit it, but i did right. it's been years since you gave me motivation, support and encouragement. it has been so long. thannk you for the late night text to keep me going strong. to keep me going rather then quitting everything. to keep me going so as to not disappoint my parents. thanks for making me realise that. thank you again to you. so for what i could say now is that, its freaking weekend. half happy half not. saturday will be going out with lovely eeka and my big brother to watch a dance performance at nafa. sunday will be all study day. and as so to say.. i miss my bunch of girls a lot. where are you mans. i miss you girls. goshhh. Labels: fatigue, motivation, smiles, stress TOP OF PAGE
Sunday, May 2, 201010:31:00 PM
  WELCOME TO THE MAD HOUSE. I want to be EMOTIONless. I feel like going insane. And be what I was before. The life that I find could forget my feelings for a night. The life when I find my own peace, sitting at the highest level of my Blk, wondering, thinking and hoping. Whenever I look down below, I find myself dangling on air. I was feeling what suicidal was like. But then I came about thinking. WHY? I was laying still at my sofa, covering my wet face away from all of you. How embarrassed I was trying to hide away. Hide the feelings. Hide the tears. Hide myself. I felt like I was hopeless. I envy you. I wasn't hurt physically, but I was hurt emotionally and mentally Like how my syg said, i predict he has it too. But based on reality, it won't The bigger the hope, the bigger the disappointment right. Based on the photographs i created/ taken I never met that criteria. Today= disaster. School has been hectic. Studying just ain't working. And i don't want to go school tomorrow please. I'm in an all time low. Labels: down. |
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