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Ailah Rasol.
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Saturday, February 27, 20109:39:00 PM
 Love, Ailah Merrick. TOP OF PAGE
Friday, February 26, 201011:54:00 PM
 When pretending that you're someone you're not, is easy. But turning yourself into one of them is not. Sometimes, we want some things really badly, but it doesn't mean we'll get it. Our life story is already written. Some day things will go for the better, some day it will go for the worst. It's unpredictable. REALLY. WELL, the world is really turning around. Im shagged. VERY VERY PISSED. SLEEPY AND SUPER TIRED. Been working lately. KARA OK with workmates. L4D2 with guys till late night. Going dizzy with laughter. Hyper with sleppy-ness. GET me. I eat lesser, enjoy more. I've been speaaking more of MALAY than ENGLISH. and i pretty much lost with words nowdays but filled with laughter. I was called crazy, even some said I was drunk when I'm not. Tragic days. Ok, I'm hungry. AND TO THIS SPECIAL SOMEONE>....  SHAZAA ,A VERY HAPPY LEGAL-DAY to you BITCH. Hope you did had a blast on your birthday and the day after. ILY Labels: blah blah blah TOP OF PAGE
Monday, February 22, 20101:04:00 PM
  5th of Dec 2009 marks the date whereby this family celebrated a joyous occasion together for the very last time. It was the date where other families reunite as one. It was the last day where my aunt get to see the rest of her siblings to celebrate her daughter's wedding. But things changed, when as days goes by, tears keep rolling down. Each one of my aunt's children took turn to take care of their sick mother. To be there by their mother's side. To support her. Push aside their father, cause he was never there. But this cousins of mine stood strong together as siblings to fight through all the negative thoughts and hurtful words that was confronted against them. They had to bear everything for their mother. But last Friday, 19th of Feb 2010 at 6.28 pm, my aunt gave out her last breath of air and was pronounced dead. This marks the day of sadness but their mothers sibling was not on a right mind. This children was scolded and accused. To make things worst, none of their mother's sibling was trying to understand their feelings. On that Friday itself, Mummy went to aunt's house cause her daughter came over saying that "my mother wants Mummy to take care of her. She didn't ask for the rest but she only wants you. All of us had tried to persuade her to go to the hospital but she insisted on it. i had no choice but to fulfilled her wish of wanting you. Please persuade her ok Mummy. she only listens to you." To make things clearer, Mummy and cik Ros are both of the same age. They are just different in terms of mothers but they share the same father. So basically cik Ros was born in July while Mummy in October. They grew up together, share the same friends in school, sit in the same class, and always share their stories. No matter how bad the rest of Mummy's siblings can be, Cik ros will never failed to wish Mummy a Happy birthday and she will at least call once in a year. Compared to the rest 8 of them, don't bother. They always regard Mummy as an outsider. back to story, Mummy did went there. Mummy fed Cik Ros her last meal (three spoons of porridge), accompanied her till Rafi gets home. And to those aunties who said that Cik Ros children is not responsible, well open your eyes, Rafi rushed back home because of his mother. Abg Hanafi did everything to get through Mummy. Kak Nora never fails to make her mother porridge every single day. While Atiqah will always be there by her mother's side every where her mothers goes. Isn't that enough to prove you clever aunties that they are well responsible and care about their mother.? Mummy even made a promise to Cik Ros that she will take care of Cik Ros if Cik Ros promised to go to the hospital. And the only thing my aunt say " Aku pergi hospital nanti tapi kau janji ehkkau jage aku macam mane kau jage mak aku. Kau ingat kan dulu kiter selalu kater kalau aku sakit kau jaga aku, kalau kau sakit aku jage kau. " And she even said " Ana, kau tak rindu ke mak ngan bapak. Dorang kirimsalam kat kau. Nanti aku bilang Dorang kau pun sampaikan salam tau." Every drop of water that Cik Ros wants to drink couldn't get in. It came pouring out of her mouth. It was a sign and Mummy could just be there for her. When mummy were leaving, Cik Ros told her repeated times" Jgn luper dtg tgk aku nanti petang tau" . And the reason why Cik Ros didn't ask for the rest of her siblings, it's because she felt hurt with what other of my aunties had done. So open up your eyes you aunties. It's not the childrens fault that they didn't called, It's because their mother didn't want them too. After my mum had left, half an hour later, Rafi began panicking cause his mother was blabbering nonsense things. And his mother suddenly weakened. Rafi called Kak Nora and at that time Kak Nora was not in a peace of mind. Luckily, she was around Yishun, she didn't feel comfortable leaving her mum alone. As so, the four siblings got together and brought their mum to the hospital. Cik Ros did normal scanning and unfortunately, all her organs are destroyed as all her cancer cells had spread. The doctor only told them that she only left with 10% of life, do call your other family members. Abg Hanafi called Mummy and told their mum would not be leaving longer, do call her siblings for them. Not long after, She was pronounced dead. After the funeral, I thought things will get back to normal but NO. This aunties of mine having grudge on this children and honestly speaking, I'm not the small Nabilah who didn't understand anything , I'm freaking 18. I got my own eyes to observe and my own ears to judge every single thing that is happening. You people can confront her children saying that why never call them why must call other people. well HELLLLOOOO. my mother is her sister. I don't know wth or what the fucking problem you have with my mum, but you guys ain't going to stop. Seriously. god knows the truth and we know it too. I've been growing up listening to shits and everytime my mother help one of you. The big headed ones will go on talking spilling things that is not right. Tak cukup ke dosa krg da uat. No wonder Mummy always say in the future if she happen to go away , she only want us, her own children and husband to be always there. To her siblings, she will be greatful if only one of them kissed her forehead. Only one. she doesnt need the rest. Seriously, you people never learned, and I always have a grudge with every of my aunties. Not only me, but my siblings to. Our mother gone through enough so as my aunt. so let it rest. She deserve some peace in life. She had enough heart break. Maybe you guys were just guilty cause you didn't get to be the last one being with her instead it was my mum who was the last person with her. After what Aunties had done, i'll always remember. To kak nora and family, be strong. my mother kept her promise that she will leave the house after all her siblings had gone off and she did. You guys kept your promised to not lose your temper and ignore everything. Well done. You guys know that Mummy is always there. And kiter tak akan luper sedare. Love, ailah merrick TOP OF PAGE
Friday, February 5, 201010:47:00 PM
 Pathetically , this is what I will become if I always wake up early and going through early courses as a Nurse. HAHAHA. so not. Akim has been really cranky and I've been there by his side for like 9am- 6 or even longer. Depends though. And I don't get paid for it. Damn it. LOLS. jokes. In anyways, he's recovering as in walking but that was beyond his control. He's destroying his knee if he walks too much. Recently, the doctor said his ligament tear and yet he wants to go to his gig. I can't do much but just practicing the PENGANTIN walk. Super slow and steady. The good thing is, he listens more than he talks,which surprise me a lot. And plus I just got home from Akim's house. Talk with the twins was crazy. We were noisy. Very. Switch phones with Akim and went back home. Had dinner and now here I am, blogging. Two more days to Altiora's big day. I'll be there supporting guys. You can do it!!! And to all my Girlfriends, do take good care of yourself aite. We'll meet soon ladies. very soon. Love, Ailah Merrick Labels: .speechless |
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